Tag: Thoughts

  • Departure

    Departure

    Leaving is always tough, bittersweet, necessary, but painful. Yet, this time around it felt like I was Frida Kahlo and I felt so disconnected with both of the emotions that were splitting me into two, I could hardly recognize myself. I saw others be surprised of this girl who is reinventing herself, yearning for a…

  • YOU ARE NOTHING! HAVE NOTHING! SAY NOTHING!

    YOU ARE NOTHING! HAVE NOTHING! SAY NOTHING!

    YOU’RE TOO YOUNG! YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND! OH, YOU COULDN’T POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND! OH YOUNG, TOO YOUNG! YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT LIFE IS LIKE, YOU WON’T KNOW, YOU CAN’T KNOW! YOU HAVE NOTHING, REMEMBER THAT, YOU HAVE NOTHING! yet it is I that knows you, loves you, tolerates you, knows you need me as much as I…

  • Asleep but Awake

    Asleep but Awake

    Every morning, my mom routinely refuses to leave the house without coming up to my room and giving me a kiss on the forehead.  While it is the sweetest and most constant thing that happens every day now, it is also the most sad. I know where the action stems from; she is afraid. She…

  • To understand 

    I have been sulking in my depression and its powerful ability to cloud over my life and let itself be inserted into whatever point my life has currently reached.  The pain builds connections with my loneliness, my hopelessness, and my abandonment issues. How can a force be so powerfully permeable? How does it swerve annotations…

  • “Home”

    “Home”

    I was born in a big city, and pretty much spent my childhood at a central location. It was a nest; a surrounded nest. We lived in a building that has 4 stories. Like many South American families, we lived above the family business that my parents ran. So the first floor was the family…