I am, I aM, I AM
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liberation
I feel her in the tea that I know by herb and not by brand, she’s glistening in shadows that hug the city. The mountains forget what time it is. they lose themselves in the clouds like when my tummy hurt at the beach and all I could do is lay lay lay looking up…
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arcoiris
I thought words only painted images or things we want to see but can’t, i’ve found words also paint nondescriptive anthems. splashes of paint consumed by deepest fears // depressive episodes glassed with bloody // cuts // their skin fresh in mind and soul, wanting to absolve intrusions numbing empty hope // running engines of…
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medicated
late at night chemicals in my brain react to whispers of vanguard dissolved by a little pill served by my new corner pharmacy rooted in mannerisms of expectation seeking performance aside from revelation feeding the emptiness of melancholia weighing high functioning cycles exhausting every tear possible as raiding disruption turns into abduction clinging to images…
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The voices in my head
you know what bothers me the most? it’s never how much someone pulls away, or how they read your scars with self-diagnosis, how they judge your responses. it’s the lies. the lie of their care. the lie of their fear. the lie of their contempt. am I so gullible to think that still, through the…
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Estrellas
sera ya? sera ya que se me agotaron las estrellas? que el cielo llego a mirar mi destino y dijo, cuantas ganas que le faltan a estas pilas de recargarse cuanta pena que las ganas que no tiene se fugaron a otra galaxia. Aveces me siento como la arena fuera del mar, permeable y absorbente,…
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Cual es la verdad?
I miss you, so much that it scares me to see you. Would you be mad if I told you? my love for you sings in silence. I heard your voice in the cabin of my car driving to see you while getting high, shaping my symptoms from falling behind telling you I lied, I…
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S1lence
Silence. Mostly identified as unspoken, silence, in my opinion, is the most emphatic of languages. Silence has been my coping mechanism for a lot of 2018 as the most challenging times arose and then simmered as time passed. Silence is like binary code, it’s an action-led motion, emotion, and emphatic feeling. It’s tap into the…
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Embrace
in my dreams I hold onto you like the line of the train is falling as it moves through the tracks invigorated to see us getting along in shock, I get scared that it’s too good to believe and that’s when the nightmare begins usually in a train station if not already on the way…
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22
I feel like every year I always say the same thing. It’s been hard, it’s been painful, it’s been chaotic. But this year has a different tone. It’s been life-changing in all the ways that transformative years have. I never thought I’d come this close to death again, at least not outside my head. This…
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Answer of the day
At this point, there’s enough questions surfing through TikTok that anyone who struggles to succumb to the truth will lose faith in answers. Yet when the rhythm of “Good Days” unravels a masked sadness, I know why the answers aren’t spelled out into words. They belong to the silence that unraveled with you. There’s enough…
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Estranged
Alone. For so long I’ve been alone, not just lonely. I remember being a kid who saw, spoke, felt, mourned, and had hope. But it was not based on the ideas that those before me and those after me would provide me with a net of safety. Now I have to rise up and be…
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